Elemental Strangeness..

I was doing some lil quiz things for fun, cause I’m avoiding doing useful things and most of them turned out to be full of bs, but this one just was pretty accurate.. so I’m posting it :P.

Your Element is Metal

Your power colors: white, gold, and silver Your energy: contracting Your season: fall You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn). If you see something you want, you go for it. You have a lot of strength, and it’s difficult to get you down. Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life.

What Element Are You?

And these just fit too.. I’m bored.. sue me.. 😛

You Don’t Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is… you’re too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you’re just holding back, it makes you seem like you’ve got something to hide. Why Don’t You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz 🙂

Your Aura is Blue Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor. What Color Is Your Aura? Take This Quiz 🙂

Your Inner Muse is Urania You are most like this muse of astronomy. Your head is in the stars, and you look to the future. You give off a heavenly, mysterious vibe. And you’re not too bad at predicting the future. What Muse Are You? Take This Quiz 🙂

Wonderous Wizzles..

What in the world is a wizzle? Couldn’t tell ya, I just like the way it sounds.

 

Finally went snowboarding. Had so much fun. Spent the majority of the day sitting on my butt from falling, which I predicted. But I had a blast anyways. Couldn’t make it down the bunny hill without falling, but went down the intermediate hill anyway. The person I was boarding with wanted to, so I figured why not? Bad decision. Interesting experience though. I literally fell after 2 seconds of being on the board, and then when I actually got the hang of staying upright, the dang hill got too steep and I couldn’t see where I was going and that made me nervous so I purposely fell. At one point I was actually snowboarding and then this guy I knew whizzed by and said something to me, so I looked over at him and fell really hard on my hands and whipped my head back really hard. Took me like 5 minutes to get up. It hurt like a son of a gun. Because of that fall, I could not move my neck yesterday. My mom had to pull me out of bed. It was bad. But it’s better today :D. It had better be better cause I’m going out whether I can move or not :p. And no matter how many times I fell I kept pushing myself to keep going. When I should have quit, I went one more time. So my advice to anyone who may read this and wants to go snowboarding but hasn’t yet, don’t push yourself. When you get tired, take a break. And eat. I didn’t eat that day. Dumb move. I told my older cousin Mike about my snowboarding experience and he gave me crap and said I should go with him and he’ll teach me all I need to know. Says he’s a pro. I was like right on, I’ll take you up on that. Cause I wanna snowboard. It feels awesome when you’re NOT falling. I wanna go again and again and again and again. Assuming I can afford it that is. I’ll find the money from somewhere. I always do :P.

100 Questions

SIMPLE QUESTIONS:

1. Name: Crystal Hayes
2. Nicknames: Crys, Tash, Cris-tal, shorty, midget, lil one, crystal fog
3. Shoe size: anywhere between 4.5 and 6.5
4. Height: 5’0"
5. Hair: Medium brown, with a hint of red and a very blond streak at the front, completely natural btw
6. Siblings: An older bro.
7. Do you like to sing in the shower? Only when I have a song in my head, otherwise I tend to plan things when I’m in the shower…
8. Do you like to sing? When no ones around I do
9. Birthday: May 18th
10. Sign: Taurus
11. Lefty or righty: Righty
12. Shoes or sandals: Shoes, I don’t like not wearing socks, makes me feel funny
13. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
14. What do you want in a relationship? Trust and honesty are top priorities. Then there’s dependability and understanding. 
15. Have you ever cheated? Once, when I was much younger. He cheated on me, so I cheated on him. Mine hurt worse though, he completely hated the guy I cheated with.
16. Marital status: Single

FAVOURITES QUESTIONS:

17. Song: At the moment, Jesus  of Suburbia by Green Day, but it changes weekly
18. Cologne & perfume: There’s this one cologne that reminds me of my childhood.. I love it.. no idea what it’s called. And perfume, anything vanilla, tommy girl (except it reminds me of my "wilder" days so I tend to stay away from it) and adidas
19. Movie: Um, I don’t have a top favourite movie at the moment. I tend to like a lot of movies and not have a top one.
20. Numbers: 11, my board was number 11 today 🙂
21. Card game: Um, Rummy 500.. used to play it a lot with my mom, aunt and cousin when we used to go to the cottage every summer
22. Radio station: 106.9 or 99.1 (The Bear and Christian Rock)
23. Male & Female singers: I don’t know, it’s something I’d actually have to think about, and I really don’t wanna think about something so useless 😛
24. Sports: Swimming, skating and currently, snowboarding.
25. Food: Um, I’m not a big fan of food……
26. TV show: Gilmore Girls and One Tree Hill
27. Cartoon: Uh, I don’t watch cartoons.
28. Character: Lucas Scott 😉 (Chad Michael Murray in One Tree Hill)
29. Colour: Red, purple and silver

A LITTLE BIT O’ THIS, A LITTLE BIT O’ THAT:

30. Do you plan on having kids? Yes, by the time I’m thirty or I’m adopting
31. How many do you want? 3 or 4
32. Who is your celebrity crush? Chad Michael Murray, but it won’t last much longer.
33. Get married? When/if the right person comes along, sure, why not
34. Would you have kids before marriage? Not in the conventional means, but by adoption yes.
35. Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? No.
36. Do you have a crush? Yes I do
37. What hurts you the most? Realizing I shouldn’t trust someone I trust
38. Music/TV: Music
39. Guys/Girls: Guys for relationships and friendships
40. Green/Blue: Green
41. Pink/Purple: Purple
42. Summer/Winter: Winter
43. Night/Day: Night
45. Dopey/Funny: Funny
46. You know I’m around when..: You hear people telling someone to speak up or talk slower.

47. Are you a virgin? Yes I am and damn proud of it too
48. Do you enjoy what you do? Yes, I’m very passionate about it.
49. What’s a major turn on for you? Um..A guy who is confident, but not so confident that they come off as arrogant
50. Who are they?: What in the blue..?? 
51. Most blonde friend: Um, I dunno.
52. Nicest friend: Agata and Dana, you will never find people nicer than these two.
53. Funniest friend: All of my friends can be funny.
54. Tallest friend: Tiffany
55. What’s the worst thing a friend could do to you? Get  mad at me for nothing and then not tell me they’re mad.
56. Which people do you trust the most? *shrug*
57. Do you believe in soul mates? I think so.. yah..
58. Is it right to flirt if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? Only if the other person knows you don’t mean it seriously, so basically only with friends with whom there is no attraction.

OTHER RANDOM QUESTIONS…

59. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? Music videos strangely enough.. but I guess that doesn’t really count.. it was pretty much a betrayal.
60. What’s something about guys/girls you don’t get? Why guys have to show off in front of certain people, and why they act totally different at certain times than at others..
61. What do you want right now? To want to eat, I’m freaking hungry but dont wanna eat.
62. What’s one thing you can’t live without? A good book to read.
63. Love or Lust: Love
64. Silver or Gold: Silver.
65. Diamond or Pearl: Diamonds
66. Sunset or Sunrise: Sunrise, it’s a lot more spiritual
67. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? Once, a long ass time ago
68. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope, I sleep with a real one
69. Do you have any piercings? My ears
70. What colour underpants are you wearing right now?  I think they’re purple
71. What are you listening to right now? Commercials 
72. What are the last 4 digits of your home phone? 7278
73. Where would you want to go on your honeymoon? Some where that is surrounded by nature.
74. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? I really don’t know. I haven’t met him yet or havent realized I’ve met him yet
75. What are some of the first things you notice about the opposite sex? His presence, and his sense of style.
76. What makes you happy? being with certain people.
77. What’s the next CD(s) you plan on buying? I dont normally buy cd’s. 
78. Do you wear contacts or glasses? I SHOULD wear glasses, but I left em at Carleton U one day and now they be gone..
79. What was the best advice ever given to you? Not to care about what people think of me.
80. What do you think of people? Overall, people suck. They’re emotional, picky, opinionated and selfish. But they can be really good at times too.
81. Do you like funny or scary movies better? I absolutely LOVE horror movies, but dont allow myself to watch em very often
82. On the phone or in person: In person
83. Hugs or kisses: Hugs..
84. What song seems to reflect you the most? Um it depends on my mood and my current situation in life.. right now it’s ‘the way to begin’ by Krystal Meyers (lyrics are on this blog, a few entries back actually).
85. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? Different things to different people.
86. Do you have any enemies? Maybe, who knows.
87. Who was the last person to hug you? Maggie
88. Would you rather be rich or famous? Rich.
89. What time is it in Albania now? Don’t know, don’t care.
90. What time is it where you are now? 6:16pm.
91. Have you ever met Santa? *rolls eyes*
92. Name something pretty: Nature, anything in it
93. When did you last talk to the person that you like? Saying that will give people an excellent idea of who that person is, so no not saying
94. Do you have any pets? yes, a dog, a cat, 2 degus, a budgie and a dove, considerably less than usual btw.
95. Who was the last person you danced with? UM, wow I dunno man.
97. Are you an alcoholic? no.
98. Who sent this to you? Lis and Kim
99. What do you think of this person? They’re both great and yah.
100. Do you want your friends to fill it out? Um, only if theyre incredibly bored.

Christmas & Grades..

So I have this habit of what I do every Saturday morning. I’ve been doing this exact routine for like 4 months, pretty much since school started this year. I wake up around 8am, cause I can no longer sleep in. Then I read for an hour, whatever book is handy. Never something useful. Then at 9 I go downstairs and start watching my 3 Saturday morning shows. Gilmore Girls, Felicity and Once and Again. Gilmore Girls is always a repeat, I compulsively watch them and can’t get enough. I never watched Felicity before, nor did I watch Once and Again before. I am currently watching Once and Again. Odd show, good though. And the crazy part is that i hate watching tv. I think it is such a waste of time. But I watch more tv now than I ever did in my entire life. And I can’t do anything productive until after 12, cause I have to watch my shows. It’s like I have to waste time before I can do anything. It’s silly. But I just succumb cause I can.

 

My exams finished last Thursday. I got my marks Wednesday. Straight A’s. I got my transcript yesterday. I got a 3.8 GPA, out of 4.0. .2 off of perfect. So much better than last year. And on Tuesday and Wednesday I went to placement even though I didnt have to. I wanted to. I made these little boxes and put candy and a lil card in it for the boys in my class. One boy ran up to me and hugged me and said he really liked it. That right there is why I’m in this field. Why I plan to continue to work with "at-risk" kids for the rest of my life. It’s worth it, it’s satisfying. I love it.

 

And tomorrow. I am finally keeping a promise to myself that I made at the beginning of this year. I am going snowboarding. Although I’m not currently talking to the person I made the promise for, I’m going anyways. I made the promise and I don’t break my promises. I also really wanna go. It’ll be so much fun. I’ll break my butt, but it’ll be fun nonetheless. I bought snowpants and gloves just to go. LoL..

 

Yesterday was my mother’s birthday. I made dinner. I burnt a part of it, but I made it anyways. No one complained. I made the only thing I CAN make. I made macaroni casserole. :D.

 

Today is Christmas Eve. Merry Christmas to those who celebrate it. My family celebrates it, so we’re opening our gifts that are currently residing under the tree tonight cause I won’t be here tomorrow. Then the 26th, is when we get together with my mom’s side of the family for desserts. I’m gonna gain so much weight in the next couple of days. I’m going on a diet after Christmas.

 

I’ve got so much things to be happy about, gleaming about. but I’m not.

The Way To Begin..

"Dear God
It’s me again down here
Don’t wanna sound incincere
I’m lost
Sometimes you’re so unclear
What can I do?
I’m feeling so far from you
Frustrated
Irritated
Disconnected from it all
The weight of the world
Has pushed me to the wall

(Chorus)
I surrender
To you I’m giving in
Come take me
Save me
I want to start again
I’ll open my broken heart
‘Cause I’ve reached the end
And you are the way to begin

Ohh ohh…ohhh….

I’ve seen a million empty smiles
Living in denial
I don’t wanna live like that
where nothing’s real
I hate how it is to feel
Frustrated
Irritagted
Disconnected from it all
I’m breaking
I’m aching for something beautiful

(Chorus)

All the riches in this world
Couldn’t fill this great big hole (I surrender)
It takes something so much more (I surrender)
Only you can take me
You can make me whole

Its not the end this is the beginning
Its not the end…its not the end…

(Chorus)

(I surrender….I surrender….)
Its not the end this is the beginning"

–sung by Krystal Meyers

Blissful Nothingness..

At least for 2 days. My last major assignment is done and to be handed in in an hour. And now I just gotta worry about my exams and yah. but im doing awesome in school. i calculated my average this morning and its currently at 88% which is completely awesome. Im so proud of myself. I did it. I made Dean’s list. Im soo happy. And relieved. this is short cause i got class but i just wanted to let the world know that im not a totally depressed person and i do know how to be happy but when im happy im more social so i dont have as much time to blah blah away on my blog as when im depresed and holing myself away in my house. yup. 😀

A poem from the past..

I wrote this a REALLY long time ago. I found my old diary and was looking through it.. wow my life was sooo different. My biggest problem 7 years ago was "my boyfriend doesn’t spend enough time with me". Damn I wish life was still that simple. Anyways, I wrote this little bit of a poem anywhere between ’98 and ’02. Your guess is as good as mine. But I like it.. Maybe one day I’ll get around to finishing it.

 

I remember,

the way it used to be

the way we used to seem

in perfect harmony.

And when I look at you

And then you look at me,

It’s so plain to see

We weren’t meant to be